Will i be able to move past this? it hurts so much! all the time!?

You're going to have a really rough time in life if you continue to hang onto these judgments. Your anger is entirely misplaced. I don't think it's necessary to call this woman a middle aged skank. You're getting older everyday sweetie & I'm sure you'll be none to pleased when someone refers to you as an old hag in 10 yrs time. It just comes across that you're a very hateful & bitter person. You need to be pissed at your MAN and nobody else. Apparently you're not mature enough to understand that the person that wronged you is the person to be pissed at. Sounds like you're jealous if you have to call names & hate on someone that doesn't know you & doesn't give a sh!t about your existence. You also sound very spoiled & childish to think that this man never had a life before you walked into it. Grow up & move on. Life throws you some challenges here & there. You wanna be a b*tch about it? Go ahead.